Until it Disappeared

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The dark sky of the night extended far as the eye could see, small, white spots decorating every inch like a brush would do a dark canvas. It was ironic if one paid attention, how the world was in utter chaos and yet, and surprisingly so, the sky could be so beautiful and...peaceful. 

Under the stars, a large, red lump sat alone on a rock formation, his gaze lost in the fading rays of light hiding behind the horizon.

It happened more times that Nox cared to admit; these thoughts flooded his mind, attacked his senses, made his body heavy and made the bitter bite of the cold winter wind seem like a caress in comparison.

He'd lost half his family.

"I don't care"

It was easy to admit, the words coming out of his mouth naturally and with no difficulty, like water from a fountain. He didn't care. He didn't care how he'd missed watching his younger brother grow up, get his first mark on his skin and choose his first piercings. 

He didn't mourn the loss of his older sister, and even less the screeches of dying cats she called 'music', not the fact that she wasn't able to replace their mother as head of the family.

And he was almost glad for the loss of his oldest brother; the one who was always worried about him, defending and comforting him when other kids were too scared to play with him; the brother who he'd chosen in the marking ceremony as his tutor, the brother who, no matter how obsessed he had become with religion, would always smile and pat his shoulder.

He didn't care about them.

They'd made their choice. 

Knowing that was the case, Nox couldn't understand why his one working hand raised to touch the marks on his cheeks, why his eyes stung or why his body trembled; not from cold, goddess that would've been easier to deal with,  but from emotion. He couldn't understand why he was pressing his teeth together so hard it hurt, or why his deformed hand tingled with phantom pain.

He couldn't- no, he didn't want to understand. 

But he did.

"I miss you"-

The whisper of a broken voice was swept away by the wind, echoing in the darkness of the night until it disappeared.

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But I was dying to do some Nox//family feels- I couldn't help myself